I read with fondness, the ones you wrote in the rays of the Sun a just a few weeks ago. It brought tears to my eyes, that someone as awesome as you, my father, would use such a glorious and warm way to tell me that you love me.The one you whispered in the cool wind of last year made me sit to think and ponder your awesome greatness, but the best of all, was the one you spoke in the waves of the sea… The endless stretch of the ocean is immeasurable. I couldn’t even fully grasp why You would love me so much.
I guess that just as I can never tell where the sea ends, I just may never know.But one thing bothered me. I know you try to tell me that you love me withthe wonderful works of your creative hands… But I wondered why I never heard your voice. Then it struck me like a train hitting a deadly frozen, icy rock: You have never stopped speaking, I just never heard you. How frustrated you must have been when you tried to wake me up to speak to you at five am yesterday morning? Or how disappointed you were when I rushed out of the house today, after reciting through Psalm 91, like I do one of my house chores.I always felt the gentle nudging of your Holy Spirit, but I am always so tired and busy, that I keep postponing the time I should spend with you.Yet, I realise that I have just about enough time to watch television or to surf the internet.
My children, the four you lovingly gave me, have to go to school. My husband works nights and I work days. My bills are overdue, I am even being threatened with court action if I don’t pay up. Life’s worries; so many of them have I used to side track you. But you didn’t give up on me did you? You sent me dreams. Some were so disturbing that I would wake up drenched in my sweat. Scared I was under attack by my enemies, I was forced to run into you. A few prayer points later, and I felt better. Your protective hand was upon me and I was safe in your Name.
But, with sadness so deeply entrenched in my soul, I realised that this is what I do all the time. I run to you only for protection. I don’t care to know your likes or dislikes. I am not even sure of what your favourite colour is. I am sure I cannot tell how you like your breakfast or what ticks you off? How can I claim to be your child when I don’t even know you? But You know Me. You know and care about every single thing that happens to me. You numbered the hair on my head, and specially selected what should adorn my body.
You know my name… You picked my life.. .You selected my destiny and bestowed countless gifts upon me. You speak all the time, but I dont listen. Yet,You still want to know me so much that you speak to me even while I am asleep…even when you know I may never reply you.
Oh! I dare to call you Father. So last night, I made a promise. I would speak to you like I should. In the intimacy that you so long for. I would try to return the gentle hugs you send into my spirit when I am down. I will sing for joy and dance to you every day. I will tell you more about my life… not only the parts I dont like much. I will write in my prayer request, that you draw me close, and for once, ignore the requests of wealth, comfort and peace that I repititiously bother you with. I would tell more people about You, give them a chance to know your special love and grace…
With a heavy heart, I went back to my special box and read the letters you had written to me. And I want to say thank you.
Thank you for breathing life into me. Thank you for loving me, despite my faults.
Thank you for sending your only Son, Jesus to die for me.
Thank you Jesus for not making excuses when Father asked you to come.
Thank you Father that You are You.
And for not saying* happy fathers day* to you last week, I am deeply sorry.
Happy fathers day Daddy, and I Love You.
From one of your many special children on earth.